to feel like this...

happiness is always around the corner when you spend time with friends...there's not much to say other then, they are the BEST!

vegas baby!!!

taking my mom and dad to Vegas for the week and i am so excited! my mom's 50th birthday was this year but due to a loss in the family, we weren't able to celebrate, so my dad and myself decided since she loves Vegas, why not?! me and my love purchased a timeshare and this is my first time using it, so i hope everything is OK and works out smoothly...i know i will have a blast and will post many pictures as the week goes on..Keep us in your prayers and  will be back soon!

Feeling much better....

after having a moment with myself..i feel a little better than my last blog. sometimes you need to push through all the pain in your heart to be able to claim clarity..in any situation. i needed my best friend and kindred spirit to hold my hand  in time of need and a little spiritual help from God to lighten up my day. i am very thankful for all of my loved ones, but i don't know what i would do if i didn't have those who could see my worries through a broken smile. in the same moment, my love is so strong, it wouldn't be wise for anyone to get in between it...especially in a time like this. what I've learned..give it to God and he will show you the way...and let you know if you have the will to stay..

Some days....

some days are so hard to deal with when your emotions take over...it could be the smallest of things that can cause the heart to hurt, and the soul to look another direction. to feel as if you are loved, but that the love you share with another is only seen through the two souls, and ignored by others.....

to feel as if all you work for to make a life wonderful with one another, crashes in your face because the outside world cannot see or comprehend the love that you feel for each other. it doesn't make it easier when you can't openly express the way you feel, calling it true love...and making others see that its not that true at all...

a fogged image in an old mirror, something that used to be there every time you looked...is just simply slipping away...too hard to catch from either end because neither wants to confess...how painful to bear such beauty in the darkest existence of your soul...when you cant even bare to share with your loved one the true feelings you endure...

the pain of it all is so unbearable at times, it seems easier to let go...because the one who should be able to see your pain, or whats causing it...is the only one who doesn't...

“Love is when the other person's happiness is more important than your own.” -Jackson Brown

 something i picked up from a friend on Facebook...i thought it really hit the spot today...

i also like to check out Kandee Johnson's blog for making life more wonderful one day at a time...and today  she posted something that i related to... a verse from Peterpan...

When there's a smile in your heart
There's no better time to start
Think of all the joy you'll find
When you leave the world behind
And bid your cares goodbye
You can fly
You can fly
    You can fly....

i LOVE my LIFE!!

i just have to admit that i love my life and everybody in it, i swear I'm such a humanitarian, i guess it comes with being an AQUARIUS. i love my MIMI, and my besties', and all of my fam bam! i just must be in one of those moods.... <3

I HEART CUPCAKES!!!!

especially when my bestie (sTy- sounds like stee) makes them, they are always so delish! today i had to hold back because of the weekly healthy eating habit i'm trying to build. here are the wonderful funky cupcakes she made today...i will post other delish treats and i just wanted to share a fave part of me...have a wonderful evening, i know i am.

GUESS WHO!?!!?

im gonna be SNOOKI for Halloween! haha! Why not give it a shot this year since she's so popular. i'm thinking about the poofy hair, a animal print or ED HARDY T-shirt dress, some pink bunny slippers, and those cool crystal sun glasses she has during the 2nd season! i hope i can rock it and ill post a picture as soon as i get everything i need! this is going to be so much fun!

i LOVE shoes!

i recently started falling in love with shoes! i have to start posting some of my favorite ones because they are adorable, sexii, hot or just plain gorgeous!!! for some one of my height of only 4' 11" lol, well 5' with my Converse Chuck T's, :) i am blessed to wear 4-4 1/2 inch heels! i love my legs in them, and they look even better if i worked out the night before, hehe... well here's one of them above, it's called the BLUE LAGOON  and has a very sexy black gator belt type of thingy on it, enjoy!

I fit in my jeans!

i bought these jeans from Delias.com and they were too tight last week Sunday...so i try them on this Friday morning and they fit a little better! i'm so happy! its not perfect yet but i feel so much better to have lost a few inches in the first week.

Ever Wonder???

So...do you ever wonder how you can express yourself to the fullest? i have always thought to express myself through dance, abstract art and poetry. i believe even though there may not be an understanding of my expressions, as long as the respect for my personal work exists, i can keep on sharing...so in the near future i will have my poetry and some of my art up for everyone to appreciate just because i'd like to share who i really am.

Had an amazing workout last night! i am so sore, but it was very worth it..it's been 2 days and i lost 1.3 lbs! i workout after work for about 1-2 hours a day 5 days a week...it's painful, but if you strive for something it doesnt always just fall into your lap. i go to the ZUMBA and CARDIO KICKBOXING classes. they are both fun and awesome choices to slim down and tone. i will be taking pictures of myself to show the difference in my body in the near future. 

This is the meal i take in during the monday through friday work week. i wake up for work and have a lean shake from GNC (chocolate and vanilla bean are the best!) gnc.com

 Then i have a meal or meal replacement (full of good carbs and protein) every 3 hours. so ill have some chicken/fish (baked) and brown rice (1/2 cup) similiar to the picture below.

the lean shake will follow again, and then again with the chicken/fish meal with veggies will follow twice every 3 hours. my last meal is a shake right after my evening cardio classes. this plan was set up by a cousin of mine who works as a nutritionist at 24 Fitness, and he is doing wonders with his body, and i am sure it will be the same for me and any others who are willing to try this. i also take a woman's muiltivitamin and omegas 3's.

Well i hope this helps some of you like its helping me and let me know if it does any good for you or even if you have any ideas that can work with this healthy eating habit.

Yay for early x mas lists!

i have realized the best way to save money for someone like me, who has a decent job but still lives on the edge of survival, is definitely buying christmas gifts way before the special date arrives. here's a few things i put on my own list..lol

SKULLCANDY TOKIDOKI OVER THE EAR HEADPHONES

 http://www.skullcandy.com/ 
this would be awesome to take with you on a run to no where...you'll forget all your problems at the moment and look awesome doin' it!


HELLO KITTY SEWING MACHINE

http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/182-9062901-4625800?asin=B000B8WSJ2&AFID=[DESTINATION]_df&LNM=|B000B8WSJ2&CPNG=appliances&ref=tgt_adv_[XSVALUE] 
i just thought this was the cutest thing! i won't have to take my jeans to the taylor if i can do it myself with this bad kitty!


DERMANEW FACIAL REJUVENATION SYSTEM

http://www.dermstore.com/product_facial+rejuvenation+system_7401.htm?s_kwcid=TC|5319|DermaNew%20facial%20rejuvenation||S|b|4623106479&gclid=CKOUn6nh-KMCFRN6gwodkwnGIA
this is a great facial cleanser and safe exfoliating system to give you beautiful skin! this is my top favorite and you'll enjoy the purchase...

No longer caged within myself..

i feel as if i am ready to fly, to have a stronger mindset. i have always had a problem with my weight from the age of 9. i was always thin as a child and after visiting my parents' home Island in the beautiful FIJI Islands, i had gained a large amount of weight and i have had my ups and downs with that. Now i am ready for a change, i am ready to fight myself  to do whats right from inside out...and already i feel my feet picking up off the ground! i will be back a few times to let everyone know what it is that i do to lose this weight, how to treat your body better, a few beauty secrets i have learned over time (and who i've learned them through!) and also how i am becoming a stronger person because of my positive changes...

So here it begins...

Starting to appreciate life a little more after going through so much, i feel as if i should share the little things...its seems as if the "little things" are all that matter these days. i am growing in God and in many other aspects in life and i just want to put my entire life out to the world to share. i mean honestly i can't Facebook forever..lol, and i dont have time for my precious scrapbooks so it seems this is the best way to document my being. i thank anyone who is reading my blog and has anything positive to say that will make my days go smoother...because it seems as if we all need a less bumpy road once in awhile. so, with that i guess i can say..LET'S BEGIN!